anon requested: all of the times sherlock and john talk about their friendship
In previous episodes, whenever there has been a mention of “friends”, it’s always been a reference to John being Sherlock’s friend. Everywhere from Sherlock telling Sebastian that John was his friend in The Blind Banker, to John claiming he was just Sherlock’s friend, and Sherlock responding that he only had one friend, in The Hounds of Baskerville. In The Reichenbach Fall, the situation is reversed. When John is rushing over to Sherlock’s bleeding, shattered body, he changes ‘Let me through, I’m a doctor!’ to ‘Let me through, he’s my friend, he’s my friend…’ He also tells his therapist, and his blog, about Sherlock: “He was my best friend.” There’s an enormous amount of difference between John being a best friend to Sherlock (which we’ve known for two seasons already) and the realisation that Sherlock was a best friend to John. It changes around the dynamic, the ownership of sorts as John, although he thinks is too late, realizes as much as a companion and partner he was to Sherlock, Sherlock was just as much so to John.
Although it’s been stated that ‘you look sad when you think he can’t see you’ is Sherlock’s way of hiding pain from John for the latter’s protection, it has another implication to it. Let’s put two different phrases together: ”You look sad, when you think he can’t see you. I know what that means, looking sad when you think no one can see you.” This jump from ‘he’ to ‘no one’ is a direct implication that John is everyone to Sherlock, the only person who matters. And John has no idea of any of this or that Sherlock ‘committed suicide’ to save his life.